It’s that time again, Life by Lens project time. This month, the month of thankfulness, I did something a little different. I took this opportunity to share a recent experience that has changed the way I am thankful. My hope is, it will change you too.
Have you ever missed someone, before you ever met them? October 7, 2013. The day our lives will forever be changed.
For nine long months, we waited. We waited for the arrival of Sweet Sloane Emori Bagley. Only on October 7, 2013, at 8:05 p.m., she was born. Still. This has to be one of the most heartbreaking days of our lives. A completely uncomplicated and normal pregnancy ended in a gut wrenching tragedy, that we never saw coming. We were supposed to be cuddling this new, precious baby girl. Instead, we were overwhelmed with grief.
How could this happen? Why did this happen? All questions we struggled with, and continue to struggle with. But out of this tragedy and grief, Sloane’s incredibly strong and brave parents are trying to find the light in all of this darkness. Instead of trying to find a reason for this completely senseless tragedy, they’re trying to find something good that might be able to come of it.
At her memorial service, they asked all of us to honor her. To honor Sloane, and her memory, by living our lives thankful for all the blessings that have been bestowed upon us. They asked us not to take what we have and all we’re thankful for, for granted. They asked us to appreciate it. To really look at it all, be thankful for it, and appreciate it. They asked us to live our lives like everything could change tomorrow. Because sometimes, it does.
October 7, 2013. It changed me. It brought me closer to my best friend who lost her daughter. It brought me closer to my church. It brought me closer to my own children and family as I witnessed first hand just how fragile life really is.
It has changed me. It has changed the way I interact with my children. I see them with new eyes. I see how delicate they are, and how incredibly blessed we are to have them. When you’re so fortunate to not experience tragedies like this, it’s easy to take what you have for granted. It’s easy to think it will never happen to you. Sloane has reminded us that it happens. It happens out of the blue and it knocks you right off of your feet.
My sweet goddaughter Sloane. You were taken from us far, far too soon. In what seemed like the longest time we were waiting for you, we now realize what a short time we had with you. You have taught us to put things into perspective. You have taught us not to take our blessings for granted. You have taught us to live for today because you just never know what tomorrow will bring. You have taught us to be better people.
I have vowed to honor you, and to allow your short time with us to change me. I try to be more patient. When I’m getting frustrated, I try to put things into perspective and ask if this is really something that should be making me so upset. I try to live my life thankful for all the big and little things around me. I look at my children with different eyes, thankful eyes, because you have changed me.
Sloane, I miss you. I miss you every.single.day, and I’m mad that we have to miss you. But I will continue to honor you and your memory, by living my life as a better, thankful, more appreciative person.
This month, the month of November, the month of thankfulness, I ask you to honor Sloane. I ask you to be thankful for all the blessings you have in your life. I ask you to live your life appreciating all of these blessings. And I ask you to hug and kiss your family a little tighter.
Now please keep our blog circle going and check out Stephanie from Lemmonmade Photography and she was she was thankful for this month.
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